This is what greets me after I input my password into my computer. This has been reminding me for over a year the very simple things I need to do. Today. Every day.
– Count my blessings. I need to always remember that although I may struggle at times, the joy and happiness that I often feel far outweighs the hard times. I don’t have to remember every single good thing. I may even forget what that good thing was. All I need to remember is that I have two feet, two arms and a big heart that continues to keep me alive. I need to count my blessings, not my downfalls.
– Practice kindness. I don’t always want to do this, and I often have to check myself before I react irrationally or irritably. I need PRACTICE. I also need to know that not all situations require kindness in the stereotypical sense. Sometimes in order for me to be kind to myself, I need to be not so kind to others. I feel like this is being honest with my inner self and something I find easier to accept and do with time. How can I practice being kind, when being kind usually ends up with the absolute flipside happening to the other person or thing? I need to practice being kind, yes. I also need to learn what true kindness is.
– Let go of what I can’t control. The big kahuna. No body likes feeling out of control. In a world where little makes sense, often retreating to our own zone, where we can control where the forks and spoons belong in their drawers, where and how we store or fold our towels. Whether we think a stick shift is better than an automatic transmission car. These are things we can control. Inanimate objects that we can physically move when we want to, and usually find them in that same place when we seek them. So what of the relationships and the way we interact with fellow living beings? I feel like some of these points intercept in concept to a degree. They make the big picture. I need to understand that I have very little control over anything at all. None of us do. We think we do but look around you. I don’t particularly want to get too heavy at this time (mid first triple shot coffee) but really. LOOK around you. I look into the faces of people lost. Lonely people. Sad people. People who look alone even though they are in a crowd. We are disconnected. We are out of control. So while I subscribe to the concept of ‘letting go of what I can’t control’, I want to challenge it. I do feel that this statement doesn’t actually refer to my ramblings though. It is far more shallow than that. Just let go of what you can’t change. You cant force another person to see things the way you do. You can’t force the government to see sense and change their policies. You cant stop Gina Rinehart from digging our glorious country into hell, all for money. Look at what you can change, what you can control. Beyond the forks and the spoons. Let go of what you can’t control but look for inspiration and the ability to change what you can.
– Listen to my heart. I have failed my instincts so many times. I have been guilty of ignoring that pestering, niggling feeling that I get when something just ‘isn’t right’. So terribly guilty. I am going to listen now to my heart, and I am going to trust it. Without question. It doesn’t have to be a massive statement that I state publicly on a freaking sign – I can keep it to myself. Yet I do have to start trusting my self. I do.
– Be productive yet calm. We have been learning SO much about planning and goals in here. It has shifted my thinking so much. I am so grateful that I have had the opportunity to learn these things because now I feel like I can actually GET THINGS DONE. Systematically. Processes. Step by step. When things are broken down into small segments, the task is so easy. Talk about epiphanies abounding. It is all going on here peeps. ALL GOING ON.
– Just breathe. Yeah right. I know. I breathe from my throat, not my chest. It creates panic and can bring on attacks at any time. So I guess that is another thing I need to practice. The best part of ‘just breathing’ is that if you do truly, really, deeply breathe, the other points seems to just roll on. They happen. Calming the nervous system enough to be able to be productive, calm, listen to my heart, let go, practice kindness and count my blessings. This is the key element that facilitates ALL of these amazing things.