Today I feel amazing. I feel hopeful and like this is going to all be ok. I know that it can be a side effect of downing my doses but I will gratefully hold onto it. I feel like my future is bright, like I have strength again. My resolve is strong.
I want so much. Not the things you can buy, not tangible objects. I yearn for stability. I feel like I can touch it now, it is just there.
Along with these feelings I worry, I worry that my mood is swinging up. That I will soon be struggling, in a hypomanic state. Yet worry is such an empty, redundant emotion. So I try to not go there.
And I will enjoy my elevated, happy mood for how, in this moment.